and i wish i had a healthy brain to process all of this, but i don’t. i want numb myself to cheat my way out
and its hard to cry when youre in a middle of a meeting, and you try your best to show up
i want to be mentally healthy and try to process this without hurting or involving anyone
this is a loud scream of help but at the same time you dont want to bother anyone so you drift and try not to kill yourself